Baker Hughes

A very Good Morning little fellas, well post aku yg kali ni entitle Baker Hughes. Yes, tempat kerja baru aku. Definitely located in KL area, Jalan Tun Razak, nearly Ampang Park Shopping Centre. Just few minutes walk dah sampai. & now aku di dalam office duduk menghadap pc yang sgt cantik monitor nya ini.

Dengan nafas lega, aku dapat kerja yang sempurna, hidup yang tk lama lg bakal berubah corak nya, wah-wah. Seronok babe, seriously aku tergerak hati nk buat entry utk meyamapaikan betapa happynya aku bila dpt peluang kerja mcm ni. Infact, Baker Hughes is one of the most establish Oil & Gas Company around the world. Alhamdullillah ya allah, He had show me the correct path & yes for sure we have to go through the path easy & slowly. May allah lead me to the truth.

Advantage bg aku, as this is one of my field of study & furthermore, this company will fully pay for my studies fees. Syukur ya allah, my life is getting better, growing so well & fine. I can live happily with my love ones & all my beloved sistahss & friends. This is terrifying wonderful, the all mighty allah, please show me the way & protect me from all this temporary heaven that could guide to the most terrible way in this life. Amin-ya rabbal alamin.

Craving

Hey-yooo waddup ?
Omg, dah terikut-ikut. Best pulak dgr Khalifah, Drake. Jgn jd rappers, jafi clown je kau ni. Hahaha, mcm bodoh en ? Nicki Minaj tu, eeeee dh habis geli dh aku tgk.

Anyway, setiap kali aku update, the place wont be anywhere else selain my beloved office - Jobstreet.com Pte Ltd & after this no more beloved2 dah.

Yesterday hari ahad - 5/6 adalah hari sejarah bagi aku. Enter sunway lagoon semua dh mcm beruk tk penah naik tu & ini. Hahhaha *including me. We have so much fun ! Mandi, manda naik benda pusing2, roller coaster bodoh,ape jadah haram benda xtreme2 ni. Kapal tu memang smpi mampus aku tkkn naik, jgn nk tinggi sgt. Menyumpah2 aku naik benda tu. Sial btol, few of us menangis. Takut, wahahahaha ! Tp aku still remain strong & tabah. Aku tk nangis ! aah sebab aku tutup mata. so tk nmpk ape2. Kepala kat bwh, kaki kt atas. Amek kau. Tinggi 5 tingkat bangunan. Memang la tk brape tinggi, tp bak dtg la korg try. Anyway, mcm sial pon smlm, dgn bala yg tk dingini menimpa aku, ianya tetap seronok. we are having so much fun. Memang best, seriously ! && Aku dh tknk ckp sbb rase bersalah still membuak2 ni.

*Kaza u tau la kan.


Ok, this post entitle craving. Ape yg aku craving ? OMGGGGGG, Please proceed with ya reading -


confessions of a concealaholic



brows a-go-go


Can u you guys just imagine ? Memang laaaa yang brow agogogok ni dah lama, tapi dr dulu aku aim je minatang ni. Like seriously, aku mmg addicted with Benefit! See, packaging die ape semua. Terrifying awesome ! boleh buat org go cra-zeh !

Oh gaji bulan ke-3 please la jangan merayau-rayau ,rewang sana sini lagi. Aku dh tk larat menanggung derita. Hahahah

It sounds mcm aku nk sgt benda ni kan, yes it is ! Tp 1 benda yg menjadi masaalah. AKU TAK PAKAI PON ! BELI & SIMPAN Haih, apa macam? Hehehe tktaulaaa, aku bukan pattern yang into make-up. ya allah, geli. Sebab aku tk gemar sgt ler yang muka betempek mcm2.Sebab tak rase berat ke muke tu ? Hahhaa, warna macam-macam.Dh mcm koling dh. Paling penting pon muka bersih, tkde jerawat, tk minyak .Tu yg sgt penting. Tapi memandang kan ke taksuban aku pd benefit, aku akan beli tp mmg pagi jahanam nk pakai. More to collection laaaaa ,see packaging die ! OMGGG, can get sia-ow already !

Nowadays, teens more prefer dengan M.A.C. Currently yg aku dpt kenal pasti brand kegemaran gadis-gadis di luar sana. Cube try benefit. U guys wont regret. Tengok packaging je dh menarik & yang paling penting. Bedak die sgt fucking rare one. Dorg mane gune compact,seriously . They are something like this :-





Coralista Face Powder
Fantastic isn't ? Catching every eyes on it ! Please la try benefit ! Haaaa , kau ade ? =)

no longer a girl,she is dead

Hello Thursday, hari-hari yang dilalui seperti hari-hari yang biasa juga. Tapi since "hari selasa - (24/5/2011)" my day seems so different, sangat berbeza. Dah mati dah jiwa ni. Rasa give-up & tak rasa hidup ni memang useful dah since last tuesday. & yes it is look too dull & too vague. I can't deny, even him yes, last tuesday had give me a lot of conscious and aware of been alive. It was leading me to a way, the way which was me, who not even know where the hell it direct to.

Memang in future i don't see any yesterday memory sebab hari selasa yang lepas.

And sebenarnye niat aku tulis sebab aku ada 1 suprise. And yes it is very fucking suprising me, aku tk expect pon smpi mcm ni dia punya ego. And so this is for a girl who use to be my bestfriendforever. And i do love her, till now even i have never met her before since we met last year. Apa yang suprising me, she is no longer a follower kat blog aku. And even dia tak jadi follower, but i am so very the sure that she is till following my blog. Hey girl, i want to see wether kau alert tak post aku ni,if she give a feedback & yes she is a stalker. Sorry, but then aku takkan buat kat kau mcm ape yg kau buat kat aku.No heart feelings ok !

Post dalam blog kau gamba aku, post dalam fb kau "status" kau yang sangat obvious utk aku. Honestly, aku sgt depressed dengan ape yg kau buat, well "i don't earn any penny from you"//"i don't live to please you" && so whatever ayat kau kan,well memang sedih. Kat sini aku cakap mmg aku sedih. But then, its ok. Maybe, kau rasa aku tk cukup bagus utk jd kwn kau. Aku pun faham perasaan yang rasa diri kita sangat sempurna utk berkawan dgn org yg tk sempurna. Tkkn la org yg ada kaki nak kawan dengan orang yang tempang ni kan ?Aku tau & faham.

Tak pa lah, memang aku tak layak untuk kau pon sebenarnyaaa, orang yang kampungan mcm aku tak deserve nak sit beside u while having a cup of Vivvano Smoothies kat Starbucks/Gloria Coffee Jeanss/Redbean ke ape lancau la. Ok, clearly yang kau mmg tottaly smoking gorgeous.

Cume nk bg reminder, what goes around comes around. Aku tk give a damn pun tp kenangkan kau la yg aku percaya ,everything buat benda sama2, every single thing, even panties sama ,bra sama. Kan? semua sama smpi org tnye "Korg kembar ke ?" Haha, see can u imagine how close we are. But then, i dont expect benda mcm ni jadi. Its fine, cume tu jela. Terdetik pulak nk post pasal kau, ingat lah. Jgn la kau menyesal sebab orang lain.Ape mimpi ngeri kau sebelum ni semua dtg dr tgn kau. kau yg buat pilihan, jgn salahkan org lain / aku utk ape yg dh berlaku.

Oh yes, one more thing stop being so bitchy girl, to be frank, kau super beyotch punye, errrr bcz, so far semua lelaki yang dekat ngn kau, even your own bf's pet brother kau sapu. Please jgn jd cmni. It is tottaly humiliating yourself. Bkn la nk kate aku tk gatal tp, aku stick dgn 1 je kot. SO far yg kau nmpk mcm mane ?

Dengan harapan, aku tkkn kenang kau dh lepas ni.&& yes for sure, my "best-fiend" already got die. been kill by me.Terima kasih kawan.

# I hate this part

I love you, please, please dont leave me .

Hey U ollsz (F**K)

Dh lame tk menulis kan ? Ni pon aku tgh typing kat office, hahahha
"Office" ?! Yes, kat office.Aku skang office peeps apadahal. Hari2 mengadap pc. Mata aku yg rabun berdouble2 rabun ni woi senah woi. Hahaha.

Ok ape yg aku nk cerita eh ? So far aku mmg dah buat mcm-mcm benda, mcm-mcm cerita dh jd.Infacet, aku sendiri tk ingt ape yg dh jd cz lame sgt dh tk menulis.

Sgt bosan kat sini, cz tkde kerja. FB is forbidden here & semua laman social pon forbidden kt sini. Tktau la blogspot.com lepas.

&& So aku ada bnyk sgt-sgt-sgt nk tulis. but then, by 5.30 baru leh proceed, tunggu lagi 3 jam ok.

FREAK

Selamat tengahari semua,

lame nye aku tk post,&& sgt la rindu.
okay, aku dh edit page. err,
based on
#now loving & #now playing ,all this are what is currently yg i'm in love with & listening with.
Lot to share actually, aku tgh serabut cz ape yg aku usahakan tk menjadi, so please wait for next post.
Really huge story that being needed to share.
TQ Kiddo/Fellas/Bastard or whatever.
haahahaaa, byeeee

HELLO THURSDAY

Good Afternoon everyone, wake-up in the noon.
going down stair to look for some dishes to fill my empty stomach, feeling hungry.
Eat the "massala chicken" but it doesn't even taste as massala, its like "Ayam Masak Merah"
or something like that.
Seriously, i have no mood to smile, but this morning + afternoon scene is sooo beautiful, the pretty blue sky, with the sun shines, the birds singing & it just a very wonderful day.
Seriously, I feel no happiness on this day
FUCK
Yes, i am a fuck
I hate to live as me, that's it .

GREETINGS

Hello my dear readers,
Happy Valentine's Day everyone,I do hate Valentine's.Seriously.
But sometimes, i would love to receive a bouquet of flower, a box of chocolate or perhaps a cute teddy, but please not on this day.

Yesterday, celebrating Kajim's farewell party. Sadly he will work for one of the huge offshore company in this mainland, we all would really miss you man, & i promise to look after your nuts girly = Mashariza Redzuan very well, just keep my promise dude.Keep my pray with you okay you (one of the idiots).

Yesterday wasn't doing fine & not running smoothly. I feel pain,sick & even getting faint gee ! All these shits keep running in my head, god dammit! the mark of what that Sis Ezz had told me that day ,wasn't stand so long. I don't know what else must I do, just please get these things outta my head !!!!!
JUST PLEASE

Each of us have the limit of the patient duh ,& i don't even know when is mine can still keep standing & help me to grow my life. My god do help me to being through these harsh time.

Someone please do understand me, someone please ? :'(
Can ya guys borrow me your shoulder for me to hold ?

* Ya Allah, dengan seluruh kekuasaan mu Ya-Rab bantulah si kerdil yg lg hina ini menyelusuri kehidupan ini dgn hati yg kental dgn segala keberkatan dr-Mu.Tingkatkan la setinggi-tinggi kesabaran dlm dirinya Ya-Khalik ,permudahkan segala urusannya. Dan jgnlah engkau biarkan ia terus menerus leka & alpa dlm melaksanakan perintah-Mu.Sesungguhnya, duniawi ini cuma titian menuju ke alam abadi. Bantulah & yakinkan lah hamba-Mu ini bahawasanya engkau sentiasa di sisinya. AMIN YA RABBAL ALAMIN

Selamat Pagi

It is not morning dh, ianya sudah petang wahai Aisyah

I feel happy today,
agaknya btol la kot ckp Sis Ezz
aku yg salah, aku yg compare hidup aku dgn org lain, hey Aisyah
semangat la, even kau tkde ape yg dorg ade tp kau still ade Kazeon kau tu,kau ade abang kau = Panjang,Sis kau ,kwn kau = I mean mereka yg lain. Yes Aisyah Yes, Itu rezeki dorang ,esok lusa turn kau pulak :)
Skrg ni, kau just keep struggling for your own life, okay, that's better dr merengek-rengek mcm budak kecik ,Ya Aisyah Ya ! Aisyah boleh !!

Cakap pasal Kazeon,td awal pagi kn, around pukul 10 mcmtu, aku trjage.Inbox ade 1 mesej, jeng jeng jeng, siapakah ? *_* (Kazeon)

"Assalamualaikumwarahmatullahiwabarakatuh saya ucap kan kepada cik aisyah wahai bidadariku yang seda lena dibuai mimpi indah, sesungguhnya kanda sangat rindu akan dinda,semoga dinda dlm keadaan baik-baik sahaja,baik lah dinda kanda terpaksa pergi buat sementara waktu ,kalau free kanda call eh ? ILYSDFM"

Berbunga-bunga hati aku bile bace, alaaaa, omey angat !! Hehehehe ,terus ade semangat ! Yes Aisyah Yes !!

*Panjang, kau tk payah nk gelak la,kau tunggu nanti, tgk coming soon , "Ibarat Bulan ,Bintang Matahari,sinaran kejora bagai, permata bucuk-bucuk & whatsoever la mthrfckr"
Hahahahaha, baru tau jang .Ini bkn jiwang ,Ini sweet okay !
*Kazeon,ILYDFMT sayang :)

-,-

This is morning, i mean really early in the morning, can't sleep :(
On the line in facebook, "sayang, I on kejap je, nanti I nangis la tgk Fb I"

I am so, not in mood, really. I go to many strangers pages in my account, & honestly, I began to moan myself (i mean, inside). I do feel depressed when I see their happiness, oh goshh !
I am tottaly & completely jelous of their life ,when can i be exactly as her ? (i mean THEM = The hot chicks) :'(
Just please help me to fix this please ?!

& Then, I hate myself.

**Sape-sape boleh tlg belikan I seluar baru tk ? Cz seluar I dh barai, yg lain pon. Longgar, buruk & so on, yg murah je pon is ok.
**I nk pki braces :'( please ?

Helloo

Greetings dear reader, good evening everyone
Just now, i feel so uncomfortable.. again
I really need a new pair of glass, glass yg aku pki hari-hari ni nk barai laaa.
Aduhh, tkpela Aisyah selagi boleh pakai, kau pakai. Haritu, kena pijak kot dgn hakim, habis frame die senget, aduh! time tu takut gile, mcm mane ni ?!
Aku nk betolkan mcm mane? Mama? Mane ade duit la Aisyah, aku? Lg laa,
Kaza? Tknk!! cukup la.

Btol-btol pening bile fikir balik. Dhla time tu Kaza otw amek aku plak, haishhhhh, so aku decide tk pki spect mase kelua, tp aku bwk la. Pastu, masuk je keta, Kaza tnye,mane spect ?so trpakse teros trg yg kena pijak ngn hakim tu yg senget tu. Then, die btol-btolkan sikit, nasib elok. Thanks sayang <3

&& now, ok sikit laaa,tp die jd longgar && tk ketat && dh teruk. Dh bape lame aku pki yg ni, yg lame tu patah jgk,so aku beli yg baru. Sendiri beli, haishhh, ni nk beli yg baru lg,celah mane la nk korek duit ni ?So aku putuskn utk pakai jela yg ade ni & jage elok-elok. Harap-harap dpt la stay lame sikit riwayat spect aku ni.

Alamakk,kasut plk, flat aku yg satu tu jela, sememangnye dh rosak terok. sgt2 daif kalau dilihat. Yg ni aku perlukan yg baru. Yg lebih elok sikit kalau boleh, sbb aku tknk la cpt hancurrr cz hari2 kot aku nk pki. Adehhh, kalau selipar aku yg ni putus, tah cmne la kn? Nmpk mcm bodoh tp cube korg bayangkn korg jd aku ?!

Haritu , aku jalan-jalan kt area Prima, sorg-sorg ,dkt je ngn rumah aku, aku jalan kaki. Jauh kot. Saje cause carik kerja. Masuk satu kedai baju, cantik sgtsgtsgt !! Gugur jantung aku tgk baju-baju kt situ, murah je & cantik, dress die, one shoulder top die. wah ! tp.. aku just tgk2 & keluar. Ade satu dress tu, RM79.90 ,warne dark blue. Lawa gile, kalau kaza tgk, confom die suke, aku dpt rasekan yg die suke sgt !? flat die, jeans die, petite wear die. Oh my!? lps 3 minit termenung, aku kelua kedai, dh la aisyah, jgn berangan bukan-bukan laa. OK-OK, lempang aku cpt !

Td Hakim merengek-rengek nk kasut bole yg harganya hanyalah RM30, tp apakan daya semua org yg berkenaan tkde sumber yg mencukupi utk Hakim, aku kesian kt die.Kesian sgt, haritu die balik cerita kt aku yg die main bola kt skolah, kwn-kwn die yg lain semua pki kasut bola, tp die pki kasut sekolah ,bukan yg tali, yg grip tu. Pastu, tgh main bola, die nk sepak bola, tetibe benda putih melayang, kwn-kwn yg lain semua kejar, ingtkn bola, rupanya kasut hakim. Nadanya mcm lawak en, tp bile balik ruma, hakim gelak-gelak pastu die nangis sbb kwn-kwn sekolah ejek die. Mak tkde duit lah hakim aku dh tknk dgr. cukup !

Ape lg ? ya allah,tingkatkan la tahap kesabaran aku ni, mungkin ni ujian yg besar kau bg kt aku & mak & adik2. Ade kesan die ,aku bersyukur sbb, dgn keadaan mcm ni aku tk lupe tuhan lg. Maih memohon petunjuk-Nya. Hanya satu aku pohon, semoga segala urusan ku dipermudahkan, jauhilah segala halangan ya allah. Ya allah, ya allah ! jauhilah aku dr sifat sombong & lupe akn mu ya tuhan. Kalau lah di takdirkan satu hari nanti aku lebih senang dr apa yg terjangkau dek akal manusia, jgn lah engkau biarkan aku leka dg duniawi & juga lupa utk BERSYUKUR,Ya allah, makbulkan la doa hamba mu yg hina ini ya allah. Lindungilah Muhammad Kaza Khuzari B. Kamil & Keluarga ,jauhkan la mereka dr segala sifat mazmumah ya rabbi.Sesungguhnya keluarga ini telah banyak memberi jasa ya allah,kekalkan lah kami sehingga nafas kami yg terakhir.

AMIN

DUHHH -,-

Post yg lame tu pun lebih kurang post yg ni jgk. Entahlaaa, mmg tottaly bodoh la aku nih. Aku tulis ni tgh pagi buta .Pukul 4:50 am && masih tk tido.Tk boleh tido. Tk ngntok la.

Td kelua pegi mkn kt Mali's Corner around 10, kt danau bersama, ungka-ungka biase, Buah Hati,Kakak Aku && Abang Aku. hahaha, sejak bile aku ade abang & kakak aku tktau. Ape aku merepek ni ? Ya allah, mmg btol la aku ni gile, errrr --

Ok2, aku tktau la nk ckp. Hari-hari masaalah yg same je. Dgn keadaan mcm ni mmg aku dh biase la kot. Dgr cerita org, tgk dorg happy. Arghhh !! kusutnyaaaaaa. Dkt Mali's ade satu family happy mkn Char Kuew Tiow, bestnye aku tgk dorg, ramai gila plk. Hm, bile aku boleh dpt ? Bile boleh merasa kelua shopping ngn mak ? Bile boleh pegi holiday ngn mak aku ? "Mak, sorry mak kakak ni teruk la. Bkn anak yg baik sbb tk dpt buat mak happy dgn keadaan keluarga kite. Name je anak sulung, tp tk mampu nk bg mak ape pun. Mmg btol la ckp die, akak ni bukan anak yg berguna tahu habiskan duit org tua je, mak kakak mintak maaf. Kakak janji ,kakak akn perbetulkn semua ni. Kesian Hakim, die tk membesar mcm kwn-kwn die yg lain.Kakak ni terok la,Mak kakak janji nanti dh ade kakak bawak mak pergi umrah mcm yg mak nk,kakak janji kakak akn jaga mak && dua ekor beruk tu,kita tkkn mcm ni lg dh, kite tkkn jd yg paling bawah skali mak.Kakak janji, maafkan kakak."

Mcm ni lah hari-hari, ini lah yg aku rase. Aku rase btol-btol mcm loser sbb tulis dlm ni, tp aku tknk mengadu kt org lain dh. Aku cube tahan mulut aku dr cakap itu ini,pendam, tp sakit la. Aku kena luahkan jgk, so aku taip kt sini,dgn harapan, tkde org yg prsn aku ade post baru. Aku dh tk kesah ape org nk ckp. Oh mulut yg baik hati, kawal la lidah mu itu, ingt ,jgn berkata sepatah bila berhadapan dgn mereka.
Nanti mcm kaki mengadu ,aku tk suke. Cukupla, biar aku je yg susah, susah senang hidup sendiri, aku dh tknk susahkn org lain.

Ya allah, kalau la blog ni boleh tgk muka aku, aku boleh tgk muka blog kn best. Boleh tk bg satu benda hidup yg tkde perasaan yg boleh terkecil hati or boleh mengecilkan hati org lain selain animal. errr, boleh tk ?yg boleh mendengar dgn baik, yg boleh memberi pendapat sejujur mungkin, tidak pernah berlaku kasar, tidak pernah mengucap palsu, boleh tk? ade tk ?

Cukuplahhh Aisyahhh, berhentilah, berhenti berangan. Kalau la aku ade sebijik Iphone4 ke,BlackBerry ke, kalau tk pun biar la aku dpt hp aku sendiri. Tknk pinjm org pnye dh ,kn best kalau closet aku penuh dgn dress,skirt,pants,tights,jeans dr semua well-known brand. Kasut penuh satu rak,Beg beguni-guni.Senang cite, aku nk mcm yg korg ade. Dpt pegi spa, manicure & padicure, hair treatment &&& mcm-mcm lg angan-angan bodoh aku.

AISYAHH !! SUDAH LAAAAA

Kau memalukan diri kau sendiri.
&& Ye mmg aku muka tk malu.

HOPE

well, post kali ni entitle "HOPE"dh lame tk tulis,rase mcm malas, tottaly malas nk mampus lps latest post aku yg panjang melebar tu. Tibe-tibe tgerak hati nk post. Well, harini satu hari aku pki broadband KAZA pinjam jp je,cz die kate aku pon tk buat ape-ape kt rumah. && aku pun online jela memandangkan kerja aku goyang aku && kena marah je hari-hari.

Aku still tk fhm dgn keadaan hidup aku skrg, serious shit. Aku tktau ape yg aku kena buat, ape yg aku kena fikir ,ape yg patut aku decide. Kadang-kadang, bile jd mcm ni aku rase hidup aku mmg tk guna,no use i keep still standing here without doing nothing, aku cube perbaiki ape yg rosak, cube perbetulkan ape yg salah ,cube perlihatkan ape yg tk nmpk dpn mata mereka. Tp malangnya ,semua tu tk bg kesan pun. Yeee, mgkin semua ni trjd sbb & punca die dtg dr aku. Aku tau aku salah, tp itu dulu & skrg aku tk rase korg rase ape yg korg rase dulu.

Aku dh penat ,dh letih. Semua mcm lalang, kejap kiri,kejap kanan. Mane ade angin situlah meliuk nya korg ni. Aku tk salahkan korg tp tah la doe,fikir la sndiri. Aku cume nk confess makin hari makin aku sdr sape diri aku .

Mcm biase, melihat keadaan semua yg happy aku msti jd down mcm nk mampus konon esok lusa bumi ni meletop. Yela, see, even dorg tu mcm tkde ape-ape tp dorg happy. Aku nk jd mcm dorg .Pakai baju cantik-cantik. Hair cut yg baru ,kulit yg bersih && semua yg aku perlukan sbgai perempuan. Kawan-kawan ,kebahagiaan ,ye semua tu.

I wondering ,bile aku boleh ade sepasang stilletos dr Jimmy Choo,tu melampau sgt bodoh. Hahahaha, ok la ok la, Charles & Keith la, Nose ke, Vincci is so yesterday !? Hahahaha sial je, or maybe platform heels yg kt Topshop, tkpun Ankle Boots from MANGO ,yg paling awesome Peep-Toe-Pumps from DVF (Dianne Von Frustenberg). Hahahahah btol-btol melampau aku ni. Hahaha, i don't give a damn kalau org nk kutuk aku sbb bace post aku ni, tk salah kn aku tulis ? Dh lame aku nk tulis tp malas la, tp ini lah isi hati aku, bile aku boleh jd mcm org lain .

Somehhow, ade la sepasang kasut, Handbag from Marc By Marcs' Jacob ke ,hair pieces dr Forever 21 ke, semua yg aku rase cantik gile !! Hahahahahhahaha, aisyah gile , bangang !

Aku nk semua tu, bile aku bole pegi holiday dgn family ? Bile aku boleh vacation dgn kwn-kwn ? Bile boleh shopping dgn mak aku? Bile boleh semua tu ?Aku cume tknk dh susahkan org lain sbb aku .Aku tknk ! Cukup la selama ni aku dh susahkn bnyk org, makan org bayar, rokok tk penah beli ,dhla muka tk malu. Mmg btol-btol terok la aku ni.

Sbgai pengubat luka aku, (ceh ceh) aku hari-hari tgk magazine, yesssss! aku suke gile bace magazine, everytime bace magazine rasenye semua tu hilanggg ,tibe2 ade semangat. && baru td aku ulang magazine yg same sebanyak errr, 4 kali utk satu hari .Hahahahaha, bahlolnya kau ni aisyahhhh. Tp tgk skrg, kesan die, kau ade semangat balik dh.Hahahahaha, kejap lg baca balik.

Dgn harapan aku, atau pun with a huge hope, aku akn sentiase mengharap & berdoa agar hidup aku yg mcm ni,boleh aku perbaiki && aku dpt miliki ape yg org lain ada, ye apa dia HAPPINESS FOREVER AFTER.

**Aku rindu sgt kt kau, btol tk tipu - Kaza Khuzari

Hai semua.Ini post yg ke berapa tah aku tk pasti.Hari ni aku online semata-mata nk tulis blog sebab aku rindu, yeahh kita kn Urban Peoples :)

seperti biasa,hari-hari aku hari ni sama je sperti hari-hari yg lain.Tkda yg istimewa,ahhhh hidup aku mmg membosankan.Aku tk kesah.Malas nk fikir.Mungkin sbb aku punye kepale hotak hari-hari dok memikir.Yee, hari-hari.Ape la yg akan jd kalau aku terus mcm ni.Ye syg baru i tau nape i kurus, sbb hari-hari i fikir && fikir && fikir. hari-hari telan panadol.Oisshhh, lega la sikit lepastu.Lpstu dh tk dh.(statement ni bodoh)

Aku tulis sbb aku nk tulis,aku bkn nk jd vain or whatever.Fuck man ! aku nk menulis,eh sorry menaip.Dr aku cerita kt org mcm menagih simpati. Cukup la 3 kerat je yg tau cerita hidup aku yg sesungguhnya amat menyedihkan ni.

1.KELUARGA
Aku tk rase ape-ape perubahan dari 2007 hingga ke tahun ni.Wahai 2011 yg baik hati tlg la tunjukkan even sikit pun kesian kau kt aku. Alah mcm biasa, hari-hari aku kena biasakan diri tgk muka die yg konon benci gile tgk aku kononnya aku ni mmg btol2 pompuan jalang yg useless.Dgn ape yg jd skrg, mak aku nk masuk tender dgn perangai die yg lansung tk menolong, hari-hari bising pasal duit.EH KAU MMG DH ADE BINI BARU EH ? pergi la kt bini baru kau. Kalau kau rase hidup dgn kami ni menyusahkan kau,kalau kau rase hidup kau tk patut ade keluarga & anak2, kau boleh tlg berambus la.Cukup la kau seksa mak aku.Hari-hari kau pura2 baik dpn org konon kau alim gila pergi masjid. Tp kalau perangai kau mcm ni, tlg la jd diri kau yg sebenar. Mungkin kau terlampau tertekan dgn keadaan hidup mcm ni tp tk bermakna kau boleh lpskn kt org lain.Aku fhm aku adalah anak yg hanya menghabiskan duit kau.Anak yg hanya buang mase kau,anak yg tk pernah bantu kau malah menyusahkan hidup kau. Tp aku nk kau fikir ape yg aku dh buat selama ni bkn sengaja,manusia mana yg maksum melainkn nabi muhd s.a.w .Kalau nk mkn pun mintk org, kalau nk belanja pon mcm mintk sedekah ,ape kau tk fikir ke ?


2.HIDUP DIRI SENDIRI

-Kawan
Seriously aku tk suke gile nk ckp psl ni.Siapa tk ade kwn mmg tottaly tk tau la nk describe ape.Mak korg pon ckp kn, kwn yg terbaik adalah ibu-bapa. Kwn tk pernah membantu kite.Kwn hnye dtg mase sng & pergi mase susah. Mmg btol,well selama aku hidup well brape lame wh ,17 tahun 1 bulan & beberapa hari ni aku tk pernah lg jumpe kwn yg btol2 tunjuk yg die tu seorg kwn la kn, mmg biase,itulah namenye kwn .I consider myself a loser skrg sbb mcm lonely.Hahahahahah bodonhya i ni.Dulu waktu first time knl si A i sgt excited. && i rase we can become a close friend. Oh yess indeed. Sbb ktorg mcm rapat, slalu tnye nk lepak ke tk && whatsoever but then M dtg ,die kwn dgn M ,die tk kwn dgn i, tp 2 org tu kwn dgn i lg ,God Heavens, i rase lonely ,i rase baru je nk jmpe my true "bff" but then ia bukan.lantaran itu, baru aku sedar yg aku ni tk setaraf dgn diorg, lain la diorg ade duit, cantik ,hot && everyhting yg diperlukan oleh seorg permpuan. Tgk la aku yg malang ni, dhla tk cantik, menyusahkan org, muka tk malu. Aku sdr la ,siape aku skrg,begitu rupanya manusia ,memilih kwn berdasarkan rupa ,harta && hnya berdasarkan fizikal (luaran)
bkn dilihat melalui peribadi. Lpstu aku lansung & tk pernah mengaharapkn yg lebih melainkn tuhan kurniakan aku seorang permpuan yg boleh aku dekati & rapat. Tpmt aku cerita segala masaalah aku & tmpt utk aku berteduh kalau aku di bwh hujan .Slps insiden yg lps2, aku dh mls nk ade seorg yg bergelar GIRLFRIEND no use la.Better if kite kwn && mesra with everybody.Thus the conclusion is kite jgn melebih-lebih dlm berkawan.Aisyah dah besar kan ? boleh fikir kan ?HAHAHAH ,bodoh bebalnyaaaaa.

Lg satu, umur pun jd isu gk. Aku btol2 tk fhm dgn perangai manusia yg lebih tua dr aku, Well aku rase org yg lg tua mmg suke perlekeh org yg lg muda. Aku fhm, itu lah sbb aku tk bnykkan brckp bile lepak, sebab aku sdr tahap aku. Aku tk setanding dgn mereka yg lebih dewasa. Yelah kang salah ckp kang dgr je bunyik2 mcm ni - "Eh baru 18 dh bajet2 mcm besar plak"//"Eh batak gile die ni"//"Pahal bajet bagus sgt?" & berbagai2 lg hinaan yg akn aku dgr .Sedar lah diri tu aisyah. Jgn jd loser.

Yess, bile kite ckp psl kwn,setern would love to debate && the other half would be antipodes. But for me, ape pun punca satu2 pkare tu trjadi msti punca die dr diri sendiri. Jgn blame org lain sbb cuba kaji && selidik balik then only kite dpt tha truth. Btol, jgn salahkn org lain. Itu semua pilihan kite ,hidup kite, kite yg tentukan.

And yess aku tk dpt nk deny i really miss too have a good girlfriend :) The one that i can share everything with .Tottaly missing it sooo muchhhhh.

-Keadaan
Sumpah aku penat nk taip panjang2 ni haihh, tah ape mimpi aku tah. Ok ckp psl keadaan, aku sendiri tk fhm dgn hidup aku yg mmg dh tottaly mess-up gilerzz !?
Fuck it man, fuck it. Hari-hari on facebook, tgk page org lain ,how happy their life is.Benda ni tottaly mcm loser gile sbb ckp merepek-repek dlm ni. Tp that's it,where else aku nk cerita-cerita ni kn. Who cares man, ni blog aku. soo apadahal, i don't give a fuck, if kau bace tk suke ,geli ke ape ke, dipersilakan lah jgn baca. nnty muntah ,this is my own blogpage so i can write whatever i like or dislike.It is none of your business at all.

Dh lari topik, yesss aku jealous tgk org happy dlm fb. Damn it (!) aku cuma nk happy, nk ada apa yg you guys ade. Ia sgt menghunus jiwa (eh babi apahal aku jiwang dh ni) bila tgk org happy.

Aku nk cerita lebih tp nnty bunyik mcm sial je plak kang, msty semua nk cirit-cirit dgr aku merapu-rapu dh mcm babi. Hahahaha aisyah sgt pandai.Honestly, aku sedih ,sedih dgn keadaan diri yg tk pernah nk upgrade-upgrade ni. Stuck dlm satu tmpt yg ade jln keluar tp aku kena merangkak mcm Ju-On dulu lame-lame baru boleh nmpk cahaya syurga dunia ni, aku nk ade kwn, nk ade boyfriend, eh boyfriend dh ade.hehehe syg jgn marah :) ape semua yg seorg permpuan perlukan, ye ape die? fikir lah.

Yg ye nye aku dh mls nk tulis .sorry la aku tulis mcm ape dah, ayat gedik habis. Jgn bace laa, malu i.Ayat poyo2.Mcm shit. Gedik Ayam.

Dgn harap-ann, dgn berkat aku menulis or mengadu kasih (sembilu kasih) or ape saje yg mengelikan, aku dpt ubah hidup aku ni menjadi yg lebih baik.

*Thanks too Kaza Khuzari the love of my life && Amerul Dzulkafli si bodoh yg tk habis2 dgn Megan Fox die hari2 teman pergi cc smpi tgh pagi :)

&& for u syg keep my pray && thanks for being through with me in whatever condition am i ,I Love You So Much


AMIN--

BREATH

T-Bun lagi
nothing to say ,Sayang I Love You :)

Megan Nicole

Oh his eyes, his eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
His hair, his hair
Falls perfectly without his trying

He's so beautiful
And I tell him every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment him
He wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think He don't see what I see

But every time He asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause boy you're amazing
Just the way you are

His nails, his nails
I could kiss them all day if he'd let me
His laugh, his laugh
He hates but I think its so sexy

He's so beautiful
And I tell him every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause boy you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Boy you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause boy you're amazing
Just the way you are

Eh Pukimak

Tuesday 11.42am
De-Bun Cyber Cafe - Tmn Seri Gombak

Last night was so not fun
its kind-a horrible night for me
it was so fool of me when what i hope to be turning into disaster
errr i really need to admit that i was wrong
it was my fault ,as a good frind to HIM
i need to tell the truth,never tell the lies,update my every-second activities
but i have foul to full-fill my duty
i come up with this idea,to write/to tell & express
i think we are being to far from where have we been before.I didn't feel the way we use to be like before.It just we are so different

As far as i know love keep fading as the time is running
It's already 1 year 2 months 1 days 11 hours 53 minutes & 42 seconds till now we've been together.I just can't deny how much did i love you,it is too much.I never feel this love ever.In each of my pray i never forget to hope that you will always be with me,never being apart.I'm so afraid of losing u as what i told you everyday when we met.
Till what had happened yesterday night,i know it was my fault.Yes it is,i cry myself a river when i know how big mistake i have done to u.I felt so fucking shit.I really hate myself,&& that makes me think,probably u will never put your trust on me after this & onwards.I can't go to bed last night,waiting for your call && lost in thought thinking about this no-appeasement feeling.I know i am too bad too you.Too bad to be with you.You are too perfect for me,i can't admit that i never met such a bounteous guy like u.Well my previous boys never show me their,you know "ambil berat".I need u to keep vary & alter me to become the one that you dream for.I bold this to let u know that i know i can anticipate on u. Change me to be the best for u.I willing to to change myself,just for you.Plug this in your mind.
It is so different when i met u,just keep refreshing your cerebration.From the beggining of our love story i keep giggling like when i had done any mistake in other to pronounce my words like "sleka" that is so bangang of me,u laughing like it was so funny, yes it is fun but it is humiliating me,but i laugh myself too.Hahahah bodohnya.That is how i feel every epoch when the story is playing on the screen.I never met a guy that have the feel of patience & endurance like u.Yes my entry here describe everything i felt about u & that is truth.I talk no lies here.
Yes sayang,through my abnormal post here i just can say I Love You.Love you as the way u are & never regret of what i've been through now cause i know the best damn thing i have done in my whole entire life that is knowing u & having u as my soul mate now & forever.Every night i never forget to tell I Love You so much.Never.In the other hand,i really count on that my prospects are same as yours && wishing for our love everlasting forever after.

Kaza, i am really sorry for everything i just can feel that we have been apart.My heart confess it.I don't know why.I hate my bed feelings & this make i hate myself because i don't want to loose u.That is killing me,the slayer of my heart.Overlook on me Kaza, I'm sorry.It won't happened again.I Love You so much.

**Listen to my new "It is only for you boy"
listen carefully to tha lyrics

With Tears,
Aisha Loves You

Incarnation && Cassandra Showcase

Hello Evening

It is 11.26 pm (local)
Venue : Tbun W.Maju
Partners : Kaza<3 && Panjang

Dh lame tk update
uhuuuuu,i'd look through to few ov my friends site
they keep updating their blog
each day
tp i tkde mase laaaaa

errrr
today was so not a great day
actually patut pergi gig
Incarnation & Cassandra Showcase
disebabkan kesilapan aku yg kate gig tu hari ni
tk jd
ingt MYMC Showcase pun harini .hahahaha
kesian Panjang & Maula pegi One Cafe tkde gig
mcm kelakar
tp kesian plk
habis duit minyak Maula .Hahahahhaha
Pastu semua orrg bengkek ngn aku .Hahahahahah sbb ckp gig tu harini
padahal 29th nnty .Padan la Aisyah :)
pegi W.Walk Mall kena bahan, ini lah Hartamas, Incarnation tgh perform tu
Fuckkk u Panjang & Maula.Hahahaha

Skrg mcm bebal jgk la dok cc lame2
sfter this dh tk lepak ngn org yg paling keriau that is Kajim
come from Catastroph
one of the best drummer - Kaza Confession
but i think he is right .Kajim is a talented musician ,no one can't deny it
you guys should watch him live,yes you should .
Kesian Masha i,kekanda dia pergi menyambut seruan fisabillillah
tkpe, he go for ya guys own good kn, tkpe Masha
Panjang ade boleh bahan die hari-hari :)

&& now dh tkde idea nk tulis, eh bodoh la aku ni
asl aku tulis mcm gedik sgt ni ?
hahahahahahh
bangang aisyah bangang :)

hello buddies

its in the morning
again
but now, i'm in meeya's room
hehe ,&& i am using my own notebook
errrrrrr, i just woke up and i found no one at downstair
it is so boring to be the one who can only wake up early in the morning even if going to bed at 7 or 8

last night me & HIM we are watching "Gulliver Travel's"
such a humorous movie && u guys should watch it
it is Jack Black whole rolling the main character
hahahah ,yeah man ! its funny
but aaaa our great moment doesn't stand for long
marriage war
hahahah
but i think we going to be okay some how
just it may take a long time
i mean tk lame sgt la
around 1 days & half or maybe 2
that will be the longest period i have to wait
IF

Mr.K, i am so sorry
so sorry for everything
i know it was my fault
u trying to build the way as a lady should be-
to me
yeah to me
u know what i've been through these nowadays ?
dont you ?
just hold my words
i wont break my promise
i promise
i love you forever = ETERNITY

HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

1st January 2011

11.19 pm

Happy Fucking New Year guys

May my wishes so do come true

-Amin-